As I sit here I’m thinking about how to share with my team member on how to download shape templates instead of redrawing them for classroom bins.
THIS is OCD.
1. Control as in, “it’s not my job”.
2. Perfection. “I can’t do everything ” , “everything can’t be done my way” or am I supposed to. Don’t rob folks of their own journey.
3. Circle thoughts. Robbing me of the here and now because I’m obsessing about Monday morning and its Saturday and i’m not at work.
New training in a new job. It’s healthy to review some things that I brought home but is NOT healthy to be repeating situations mentally.
This aspect of OCD will never stop. It will especially pop up with new situations, in my job every day is different. It’s always that way with teaching young children.
Repeating thoughts as taming an animal. Herding it, bc fighting it only makes the animal bigger.
I am kind to myself, and it.
I am proud to developed awareness that I even noticed that animal hiding. I coaxed it out and put it in its own containment area. Then I bring out another animal. Usually listening to a podcast or book. Sometimes doing a chore or thinking about a project.
For me bc I’m also ADD, downtime is my enemy. I practice it with breathing and bird-watching. I have added mindfulness because I can no longer cope by staying busy all the time and distracting myself. Distracting results in depression or repeating thoughts I cannot manage without emotional damage or inability to function.